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This wasn't what Booker was expecting when Elizabeth, all those versions of Elizabeth, held him under the waters. There hadn't been any time to think beyond the sick realization settling in his gut that she was his Anna. That all her suffering, the loneliness and the goddamned torture were all on him because he'd been desperate enough to make a deal to sell off the one thing he never should have let go of. All he could do was let her do it, smother Comstock in the crib.

Maybe she'd get to be happy that way. Or at least learn how to smile properly again.

Except-

Except he ain't dead.

He ain't sure where he is but if it's hell then someone has a sick sense of humor. He's still soaked to the skin from the river, his shoes are long gone and some fella who looked like ten miles of bad road stuck a weird looking shackle on his wrist after making him sign something. Probably just signed his soul, or what was left of it, away. He got poked with some needles and sent on his way. Left alone, he does the only thing that feels right.

He finds the bar. The other inmates don't seem too phased which just makes everything more unreal.

They said he's in space.

"The hell did you send me...?" He laughs raggedly at the idea that Elizabeth didn't actually kill him. Just sent him as far away as possible. He can't possibly fuck up everything if he's removed from everything, right? He stares at the drink in front of him, trying to decide if it he wants to kill the salts he's got left by drinking the whole bottle.

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He wants to ask who this woman is he's supposed to do right by, since Elizabeth is so focused on her. But that can wait, for now he just wants to get her calmed down so she won't go doing anything foolish. That was his job after all.

"Just 'cause you cried over me doesn't mean I deserved it," He says softly. God she's... she's all grown up. It's impossible not to see how different she looks, just another nail in the coffin that tells him he's been dead a while. He hopes she got to go to Paris once they'd done what was necessary to stop Comstock. She deserved that bit of happiness.

"I know, I know," He smiles a little, hoping he might drag something out of her besides more tears. "You're the one who decides whether or not I'm worth it, right?"

"And don't you forget it," she says, slowing her tears just enough to laugh a little and squeeze Booker again. "You were my only friend, Booker. I'd want to cry over someone more than I'd want no one to cry over."

Elizabeth tucks her head under Booker's chin, and she feels safe again. And loved. Most of it could be something she'd built over the years, creating an image of Booker that wasn't actually truthful to the man, but for the moment it's what she needs.

"I couldn't make friends after... after we destroyed the siphon. No one would understand. You at least understood."

"Elizabeth, I still barely understand everything that happened and I lived it." She's grown since he saw her last but she's still that girl he went through hell with. The daughter he gave up because he was young and scared of responsibility. What kind of life would she have if he'd been less of a coward?

"I'm sorry I messed things up for you, though." He never was really cut out for parenthood in the end. A giant bird had more to say with her upbringing than he ever did.

"But, Elizabeth, I've gotta ask... how am I even alive? If I'm here, does that mean Comstock ain't dead?"

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A THOUSAND YEARS LATER...

And now I have that song in my head